can you say awkward

Did you ever go some where and realize that no one wants you there and everyone is just making looking at you why are you even here. The only one that wants you there is the host. Well I felt that today. I got invited to a 4th of July party and my ex-husband was there too. it just felt like everyone was on his side and didn't give a damn about me. oh well that just means they weren't really my friends any way. FUCK THEM!!! What the hell do they want me to do. I never really fit in there any way.